IT WAS WHEN I LOST...

It wasn’t long ago when I chirped like a bird
Sprinkling around, little laughter of joy.
But soon principles were born with life’s essence.
When I thought I matured, I’d lost my innocence…

As time proceeded, eyes followed my pace
Disapproving and alarming, anxious & grave.
Every step I took forward, raised questions with a glare.
When I thought I was worried for, I’d lost all care…

Life moved on and so did we all.
Bound by rejection, I accepted withdrawal.
But time brought me closer to an acquaintance destined.
When I thought I earned a companion, I’d lost my friend…

And then it came… A time when life seems filled with roses.
And smiles returned with a natural zeal.
But a broken promise my wet eyes concealed –
A love half lost was used as bait.
When I thought I was in love, I’d lost my soul mate…

Tired, obliterated, defeated and vanquished –
I seemed to reach my end and lay perished.
Attempted to fight back with a step so naïve;
When I thought I existed, I’d lost my life…

IN SEARCH...

I lie now calm with eyes closed,
And peace finally rested on my face.
With some others surrounding my deathbed;
To lend this end a serene grace.

The soul still had a disquiet manner -
A manner where it had found no end at all.
And continued to search for that one look;
A look which could embarrass the final call.

There were faces with tears and indifference around.
While the face and the tears that could shudder my soul,
Was still not anywhere to be found.

Let no flowers scent the end I meet.

As there is fragrance of love that I carry with me.
The warmth, the aura, the intimacy,
Would travel with my body to my grave with me.

The story ended, but not the struggle for peace.
Yet again, I lost the last, short glance.
I announce the end to the end of this grief
And my soul now gives up on the final chance.

Since time, to you, made me a lost story,
Since my memories, now, don’t remain with you.
I owe up to all of that on my own
And carry with me, some part of you…

Freedom

It was when Fear ruled my heart;

With a face pale and eyes red,
I would catch the closest, dearest hand.
Soothe myself with companionship
With dreams shaped and acts planned.

Bound by fear and shackled by love,
Life seemed to make the perfect sense.
When I thought I had no boundaries defined;
Was when I staunchly had built a fence.

The day when Freedom knocked my door, Disillusionment came along.
But gradually, the eyes twinkled,
And danced away with great aplomb.

With no hand to hold or fear defined.
I now walk like a bare soul.
Where the deafening silence envelopes me,
Where misery, derision & temerity unfold.

Blessed with seclusion, I wondered what it meant.
When life defined freedom with its knowledge profuse;
I curved my lips with a smile of consent
And freedom became another word for nothing left to lose…

Dead Life of a Soul

I was standing in a place called world by the rest.
With silent questions just loitering around.
With no awareness of life and an unspoken sound.
The ignorant soul was hoaxed by others.
When the horrendous words began deceiving my soul,
It was then when I realized…
I was hurt…

With still an interrogative look,
I stood quite forlorn on the pathway of life.
My world was set ablaze in front of me.
Which opened the floodgates of my eyes.
I could feel those waters dampening my soul,
It was then when I realized…
I was subdued…

With a hurt heart and moist eyes,
I started walking on the road of death.
Letting the cold breeze approach my being,
I could feel the wind slap my face.
I dispelled myself from believing my life.
And then I felt, I could breathe in, in and out.
It was then when I realized…
I was ALIVE…

...But You Didn't

The clouds in the sky were swaying to and fro,
While the rains were creating waves in the heart.
I beckoned you to the garden of love,
I thought you’d follow…
BUT YOU DIDN’T.

The silence of the air had gripped my soul,
With you standing close to my self;
I waited for the warmth & my world of your arms.
I thought you’d caress…
BUT YOU DIDN’T.

Time grew vicious and drew us apart.
With dew in the eyes, distances increased.
I wished you would turn to give a loving gaze,
I thought you’d turn…
BUT YOU DIDN’T.

But how could distances overpower love?
There were just tokens of love I could send.
I longed for something similar from you.
I thought you’d respond…
BUT YOU DIDN’T.

Alas, there came a call from the Supreme.
But that was sent for me alone.
I left for my eternal journey, leaving you quite puzzled.
When you though I’d return…
BUT I DIDN’T…

Would You Remember...

The warm baby eyes opened to the world,
And dreams oozed out with a natural zeal.
The mind believed I could win it all,
And in the smile, was the vigor concealed.

Slow and steady went on the process-
To find my place in the material and charm.
And the gain was a loss turned upside down,
When silently, the time, pilfered the calm.

And now I walk with a naked mind,
Thinking… Hoping –
A time of clay is what I wish….
A time to mould the innocent dreams.
And cherish to want them all one day,
Than enjoy the victory of the possessed gleam.

A stranger looks at me through the mirror
And shows me a person, I do not know.
Smiling viciously, through the tears;
And darkening my soul through the shallow glow.

In the mad, wild war with anonymity -
I let me lose to let me win.
A battle with life was what I fought,
And let death win it all in the end……